My friend Crystal picked me up promptly at the agreed upon time for aerobics. She again consoled me that these ladies were nice. They would welcome me and be supportive. I again assured her that I hate group exercise. And that I sweat a lot and it will be embarrassing and I would not commit to anything.
Last time I did an aerobics class, I was 23, had lost about 30 pounds and was set to lose about 20 more. I never learned the moves the whole duration of the class. I was so self conscious. Once the term ended I vowed-NEVER AGAIN! Then I promptly found myself impregnated and I began my weight gain adventure. Up to now...I have lost a few pounds here and there but mostly I have just steadily gained weight. Especially with each pregnancy. So not only have I kept my vow against aerobics, I have pretty much been sedentary since I was 23. That, my friends, is far too long to keep from exercising on a regular basis.
All that to say this: Aerobics kicked my a$$. Perhaps I should use another word. Nope, butt or fanny just doesn't sound harsh enough. I did sweat, a lot. I didn't get every move correct. I was often going against the flow. I'm pretty sure I was the fattest person in the room AND I did not care. I was not self conscious. The ladies were awesome, saw quite a few that I already knew. Some that I didn't know just so happened to have their 'fat' picture on them to share with me. MOST of the ladies were several years older than me and quite a few were packing a moderate amount of extra weight. Many, including the teacher, have lost a whole lot of weight and then kept it off for YEARS. The whole experience was grueling and yet, oddly satisfying.
Erik and I discussed this class versus the 'gym' and we decided this would be better. Gyms creep me out. I think it is the gym rats that always work there. The ones who have ginormous muscles and a great appreciation for the female form. It makes my skin crawl. So despite how achingly sore I am from using muscles that have not been used in almost 14 years, I am going to join. I am going to do aerobics 3 times a week and hopefully fill in the other days with walking or such as that in between.
ALSO-this is day 3 of no sodas and the headache today isn't quite as bad as the other 2. It is still there. I actually coveted a Pepsi on the TV screen. AND I HATE PEPSI. This is not going to be an easy road that I have mapped out, but I will do it. My life really does depend on it.
I'm going now to take a Tylenol and enjoy a sedentary night.