Today is the ending of a very busy week. A week out and about, helping my children create their social lives. Heck, I've even had my own socializing this week. This brings to mind several things but the most pressing is still the same. Am I where God means for me to be?? I look around at my life and my family and ask, "Am I doing a good work in my life?" I have to say a very emphatic, NO! I feel like I am a hamster in a wheel. Our family faith walk seems stagnant. I feel like the life lessons my kids are learning from me are wrong. I just don't feel like the seeds I am scattering are anything I want to grow...or maybe the seeds I have scattered are growing and the harvest is scaring me!!
I can't decide if the problems I am facing with my kids are normal or if I am blowing it BIG TIME! I'm not blogging alot lately because I just don't like my life (or my reactions to it!) a whole lot right now. I feel all alone and yet supported all at the same time. God, please help me find the me You need me to be. I am frustrated with all the demands and struggles that are mine.