And I don't mean for dinner. I suppose I should 'fess up. I am about 2-3 weeks late and since I've only been late three times, I am especially freaked out. My tubes were tied about 6 months after Lilly was born. Erik is giddy at the prospect, I am not. I took a pregnancy test which was negative. I know that does not really mean anything-since I had a false negative with Erika. However, I am not gonna go out and buy 4 more. (At least I am gonna try not to) I am concerned it is something much more serious-or maybe it is just the beginning of a more irregular cycle and is nothing serious.
Soooo, there is reason for the lack of bounce in my step and the somewhat comatose behavior. I am scared, plain and simple. (That prayer in your office was earnest Steph. R!) VERY scared. God has over-rode every other form of birth control I have ever used-but this felt permanent. My biggest fear of all is that I could not have a healthy pregnancy with my tubes tied. A tubal pregnancy would be devastating in every way.
I would appreciate your prayers. I have a Dr. appt. on Feb. 9th. I turn 36 on Feb.3. This is gonna be a tough two weeks.
AUNT FLO AUNT FLO-I miss you!!