There is a huge vortex, think bathtub drain, that is my life. I am surrounded by blessings-great husband, great kids, lots of wonderful "real" friends, great pets, the ability to stay home and home educate my children, the love of cooking, a nice sized house and perfect yard and a relationship with Jesus. However, instead of my tub getting filled with blessings, the blessings get sucked into the vortex and keep "going down the drain". I can't shake the fact that time is slipping by and I am missing all the important stuff because I am focused on the unimportant stuff.
I had a breakdown at my Bible study today. It was on submission, kindness, being loving, being affirming and being agreeable. I felt all wrong, judged and guilty. It wasn't the usual "good" conviction either. It is more the I am screwing up in all the bigs ways and I am not sure how to get back on track. I know these are only "feelings" and are not to be trusted. I just feel like such a colossal failure lately. Share your best "feel better" tip and pray for me!