Dress it up!!
I am a no-frills, comfort first personality. Pretty versus comfortable? Comfort is king. I don't think I was always this way as I seem to recall spending hours primping before going out making sure everything was hanging out just so and looking good while doing it. Something about youth makes you think that if more is on display, more is looking good. I no longer feel that way. I also think the young girls who dress modestly are so much better looking than the ones letting it all hang out. When I look back to what I attracted with my tight jeans and boobs on display, I shudder a little. What would my life have been like if only I had been taught modesty and inner beauty? To live as Christ? I just want to throw a big shawl over the girls I see and tell them to slow it down and look around for a boy living life in the slow lane as well. God give me the words to teach my girls.
Wow, I even sidetracked myself!! Not where I was going with this post at all. It does kind of factor in though. The pendulum is swinging wildly-all about looks in my teens and twenties, now swung back completely the other way not caring about looks at all in my late 20's and early 30's. As I near 35(Feb), I wonder if I am not beginning to fall somewhere in the middle. I like to look my best. I like to wear nice clothes. Sometimes I even fix my hair. It does not come from the same place as it used to. It is more a desire to look nice for my husband and to set an example of looking your best to my daughters. I hate to be noticed by other people. I just don't like to think of anyone looking at me. I wish I could be invisible. To be so plain that I am not noticeable. I am sure my past plays a huge role here.
This is where I went all into my past. I am not going there. It was good to write it all down though. I had a very grateful day yesterday. Grateful for where we(Erik, God and I) have been and the turn-arounds we have made.
Lilly danced beautifully. She loves it soooooo much. She was so serious and attentive. AND well behaved. Nice for a change. She is mini-me. Minus the dancing, singing, and musical talent, of course!! But her wide open, super-sensitive, loud boisterouness-that's all me baby!! Can't wait to see what fun that brings us. Enjoy your Monday!!