I love myself...and so do I!
It has been just a few short hours since my last sugar treat. However, I have not had a sugary "episode"(read binge) in many days. Part of me longs to be healthier and cross off sugar completely and the other half of me wants to beat that half to a pulp and celebrate with cake. What is a girl to do? I am taking the wean myself off slowly approach for 1 week and if the cravings intesify, then I will have to do cold turkey again never to return just in time for the holidays.
Sleeping on the floor of the quilt museum was really fun-EXTREME sarcasm! Susie, I did not want to!! I was scared I would look to princess-y if I took an air matress but next time I will risk being a princess to sleep. Spoiled. Spoiled. I kept trying to think of our troops sleeping in holes in the sand but kept thinking if they were in my shoes-they would do an air matress.
Real fun though was touring the museum in the dark with flashlights and pajamas on. And since we were all girls, free access to the men's room as well. I can now say I have used the men's room at the quilt museum in my pajamas. Yes, the "lock-in" transformed me into a middle-schooler. Hee hee. I will now find sexual/gross references in everything everyone says. It is my duty. (hee hee, duty-get it-doody??!!ROTFL)
This weekend is also the BBQ festival and Erik has spent so much time downtown, our house sort of smells like we are cooking ribs or something. The girls and I got to see him play yesterday before we "checked into" the quilt museum and he was great. He was also excited to see us when he took a short break. We got to see him this morning a couple of times too after we were done "cuddling with the quilts". All my scouts were picked up at 10AM. We stayed at the fest till about 12:30. The BBQ festival is so much fun. I love to see our fair city so full of people. Especially downtown. The parking is HORRENDOUS and the food is way overpriced, but it is almost all for charity and a totally fun way to spend a day (or three).
I am so excited to be back to my bed tonight. I may even go there before midnight.
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Thursday, September 28, 2006
To all the bars I've loved before...
...CHOCOLATE BARS, that is. This Beth Moore Bible study is really challenging me. [BTW-I did not have my homework this work but it is the first time and I may kill myself to prevent it from happening again and the topic was STUFF(how funny is that I had no time for the lesson on stuff because of all my stuff-LOL!)] (Parenthesis within brackets-Janice you've gone tooooo far!) Anyway, this Daniel series is stepping all over my toes and because I am weird, I love it. I love to hear Godly truth. I hunger for it. There are so many Christians who just won't take a stand against sin and try to call our sin something else so we don't have to cut it out (I said WE there!!)
I try to act like my overeating sugar love is not sin. I try to act like the TV being my "relaxation" is somehow OK because everybody else overeats while watching TV too. As much as I hate it, it might be ok for them, but God is dealing with me on TV and sugar and I am rebelling like crazy. Lately it seems as though I cannot get enough sugar and even mid-snack-I want more. Going on sugar busters seems to have intensified my craving for sugar to a staggering level after cheating the first time. I shake my head at drug use and wonder how someone could make that choice as I am brought to my knees by a twinkie.(I think there is a speck and plank reference ther!) I am doing better with TV all day before the kids go to bed. After 8PM though I become a crazy woman with a remote in one hand and a snack in the other.
Soooo Beth Moore kind of "got into my business" today when she was talking about staying away from some things all together. She also delivered me from the evil one when she said "objects that have been used for unholy things can again become holy". There is alot of power in that statement and I KNOW it is Godly truth. Frankly, I am just tired of the way I feel. I covet your prayers for me cause there is a whole lot more "stuff" I am dealing with than just the clutter in my home. The clutter in my brain and on my butt need to be dealt with as well.
...CHOCOLATE BARS, that is. This Beth Moore Bible study is really challenging me. [BTW-I did not have my homework this work but it is the first time and I may kill myself to prevent it from happening again and the topic was STUFF(how funny is that I had no time for the lesson on stuff because of all my stuff-LOL!)] (Parenthesis within brackets-Janice you've gone tooooo far!) Anyway, this Daniel series is stepping all over my toes and because I am weird, I love it. I love to hear Godly truth. I hunger for it. There are so many Christians who just won't take a stand against sin and try to call our sin something else so we don't have to cut it out (I said WE there!!)
I try to act like my overeating sugar love is not sin. I try to act like the TV being my "relaxation" is somehow OK because everybody else overeats while watching TV too. As much as I hate it, it might be ok for them, but God is dealing with me on TV and sugar and I am rebelling like crazy. Lately it seems as though I cannot get enough sugar and even mid-snack-I want more. Going on sugar busters seems to have intensified my craving for sugar to a staggering level after cheating the first time. I shake my head at drug use and wonder how someone could make that choice as I am brought to my knees by a twinkie.(I think there is a speck and plank reference ther!) I am doing better with TV all day before the kids go to bed. After 8PM though I become a crazy woman with a remote in one hand and a snack in the other.
Soooo Beth Moore kind of "got into my business" today when she was talking about staying away from some things all together. She also delivered me from the evil one when she said "objects that have been used for unholy things can again become holy". There is alot of power in that statement and I KNOW it is Godly truth. Frankly, I am just tired of the way I feel. I covet your prayers for me cause there is a whole lot more "stuff" I am dealing with than just the clutter in my home. The clutter in my brain and on my butt need to be dealt with as well.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Clutter B Gone
I need a bottle of that!! I have hauled many boxes and bags to my van after staying up really late pricing stuff for an upcoming yard sale at my friends house. I vowed I would not do one again, but I have so much crap at this point, I really need to. My stuff is priced way cheap too so I will be blessing other people I hope. We have tentatively set a date for a couple of weeks away and maybe that will happen. I will take these boxes and bags to her before or after church tonight. I am also sharing a few things here and there with some younger kids at church. We could share with a couple of small villages and still have much left over. STUFF!!
Pajama day had to be postponed today because Erik was off. He is on vacation for BBQ fest but I did not think he would be off until Thurs. I woke up at 7:31 and said "ERIK!!". "I'm off", he mumbled. Thanks for telling me sweetie. We hardly have time to communicate since we are both in hyperdrive this month trying to get all of our stuff done. Pajama day is gonna happen soon and I still refused to leave the house today until church time. I would like to play hooky from that too but I guess I won't.
Gotta get back to work now, I have discovered beautiful hardwood under all my piles of crap. I would so enjoy seeing it again...it's been so long.
I need a bottle of that!! I have hauled many boxes and bags to my van after staying up really late pricing stuff for an upcoming yard sale at my friends house. I vowed I would not do one again, but I have so much crap at this point, I really need to. My stuff is priced way cheap too so I will be blessing other people I hope. We have tentatively set a date for a couple of weeks away and maybe that will happen. I will take these boxes and bags to her before or after church tonight. I am also sharing a few things here and there with some younger kids at church. We could share with a couple of small villages and still have much left over. STUFF!!
Pajama day had to be postponed today because Erik was off. He is on vacation for BBQ fest but I did not think he would be off until Thurs. I woke up at 7:31 and said "ERIK!!". "I'm off", he mumbled. Thanks for telling me sweetie. We hardly have time to communicate since we are both in hyperdrive this month trying to get all of our stuff done. Pajama day is gonna happen soon and I still refused to leave the house today until church time. I would like to play hooky from that too but I guess I won't.
Gotta get back to work now, I have discovered beautiful hardwood under all my piles of crap. I would so enjoy seeing it again...it's been so long.
Monday, September 25, 2006
A GLIMPSE INTO THE LIFE OF A CRAZY WOMAN:
GIRL SCOUTS
Parliamentary procedure is a fun way to do our girl scout meetings. Since I have loved it since FFA in high school, I have a renewed sense of accomplishment with these kiddos. If they can "get" this down, what a fun thing to know for the rest of their lives. I hope the girls are having fun too. We are doing an overnight trip this weekend, relating to quilts not parliamentary procedure. I am so excited to sleep on the floor. I hope it is fun. I did our calendar today and it is jam-packed and I am being sooo conservative!! What happens?? Cutting back on your obligations can be hazardous to your health.
ON CLUTTER
Clutter is going out of my house this week. One way or another, these bags and boxes must go somewhere. It is not enough to just box and bag. I long to have my house clean and orderly again, even though it is only for moments at a time.Hold your ground cats and little people. Everything not nailed down may go.
THE CALENDAR
October is shaping up to be just as busy as Sept. Happy happy JOY JOY!! There will be plenty of time for sleep when I am dead. (this may be sooner than later if life doesn't slow up a bit.)
FLASHBACK
Why do I keep doing things. I miss the toddler years. Who said that?
BOATING,PRAYING AND REPENTING
We went boating yesterday. ON. THE. RIVER. Do you know how churning and elevated the river is right now?? And full of LOGS. Yes, I said logs. I sang songs to God most of the ride-praises go up and blessings come down and held on to Lilly with white knuckles. My prayer life was strengthened as well. I was a submissive wife. Luckily we were with another couple(they were in their boat) and when our engine died they were able to pull us from in front of the barge that was coming. It wasn't as bad as it sounds... The engine started again too, it was a tank issue(trash in the gas or something) not engine. The Cumberland river is beautiful. I would love to see it on a calmer day. I do love my husband. I repent of calling him an idiot in front of my children and saying, "Well I guess if he is going to die, we may as well die with him." Lilly ratted me out. She always does. I think he may have forgiven me. I have forgiven him for saying "SH**" when the engine died. Erika looked up at me wth big eyes and asked why Daddy said a bad word. Proof we really don't talk that way. Until our boat dies in front of a barge and then half of us does. LOL.
I skipped church cause I spent all afternoon there!! Hee hee. Actually, 3 hours of constant stress and worrying kind of wears you out. Erik was a little weary as well.
THE BEAT GOES ON
More running tomorrow. Wednesday though, I will declare pajama day until church time. Ravioli for breakfast, lunch, and supper.
GIRL SCOUTS
Parliamentary procedure is a fun way to do our girl scout meetings. Since I have loved it since FFA in high school, I have a renewed sense of accomplishment with these kiddos. If they can "get" this down, what a fun thing to know for the rest of their lives. I hope the girls are having fun too. We are doing an overnight trip this weekend, relating to quilts not parliamentary procedure. I am so excited to sleep on the floor. I hope it is fun. I did our calendar today and it is jam-packed and I am being sooo conservative!! What happens?? Cutting back on your obligations can be hazardous to your health.
ON CLUTTER
Clutter is going out of my house this week. One way or another, these bags and boxes must go somewhere. It is not enough to just box and bag. I long to have my house clean and orderly again, even though it is only for moments at a time.Hold your ground cats and little people. Everything not nailed down may go.
THE CALENDAR
October is shaping up to be just as busy as Sept. Happy happy JOY JOY!! There will be plenty of time for sleep when I am dead. (this may be sooner than later if life doesn't slow up a bit.)
FLASHBACK
Why do I keep doing things. I miss the toddler years. Who said that?
BOATING,PRAYING AND REPENTING
We went boating yesterday. ON. THE. RIVER. Do you know how churning and elevated the river is right now?? And full of LOGS. Yes, I said logs. I sang songs to God most of the ride-praises go up and blessings come down and held on to Lilly with white knuckles. My prayer life was strengthened as well. I was a submissive wife. Luckily we were with another couple(they were in their boat) and when our engine died they were able to pull us from in front of the barge that was coming. It wasn't as bad as it sounds... The engine started again too, it was a tank issue(trash in the gas or something) not engine. The Cumberland river is beautiful. I would love to see it on a calmer day. I do love my husband. I repent of calling him an idiot in front of my children and saying, "Well I guess if he is going to die, we may as well die with him." Lilly ratted me out. She always does. I think he may have forgiven me. I have forgiven him for saying "SH**" when the engine died. Erika looked up at me wth big eyes and asked why Daddy said a bad word. Proof we really don't talk that way. Until our boat dies in front of a barge and then half of us does. LOL.
I skipped church cause I spent all afternoon there!! Hee hee. Actually, 3 hours of constant stress and worrying kind of wears you out. Erik was a little weary as well.
THE BEAT GOES ON
More running tomorrow. Wednesday though, I will declare pajama day until church time. Ravioli for breakfast, lunch, and supper.
Friday, September 22, 2006
One more reason...
The weather has turned to autumn officially so I will be doing a clothing swap out of summer for fall. My Favorite thing to do for five people.
Thank God it is Friday although since our week has been so scattered, tomorrow will just be another schoolday for us!!
Last night it stormed so hard here it woke me up at 4:30 with the most amazing lightning show I've ever seen. I went back to sleep and slept like the proverbial rock. I'm going to make breakfast now.
The Beth Moore bible study of Daniel is awesome. I wish these videos could be on prime time during a really good time slot, like in the place of Desperate Housewives or something. You can't help but do better when you know better!! The whole study is built around the attitude of Babylonia which was "I am and there is none besides me." Sounds like another country I know of!!
Have a great weekend!!
The weather has turned to autumn officially so I will be doing a clothing swap out of summer for fall. My Favorite thing to do for five people.
Thank God it is Friday although since our week has been so scattered, tomorrow will just be another schoolday for us!!
Last night it stormed so hard here it woke me up at 4:30 with the most amazing lightning show I've ever seen. I went back to sleep and slept like the proverbial rock. I'm going to make breakfast now.
The Beth Moore bible study of Daniel is awesome. I wish these videos could be on prime time during a really good time slot, like in the place of Desperate Housewives or something. You can't help but do better when you know better!! The whole study is built around the attitude of Babylonia which was "I am and there is none besides me." Sounds like another country I know of!!
Have a great weekend!!
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Top 10 reasons I am crazy this fine September:
10. I scheduled a retreat for me and an overnight girl scout event in the same month. (One or the other crazy woman but never both!!)
9. The first day of September started with a Pelvic exam. (Not the best way to start your month!)
8. There was a field trip on skate day. It's what I call a twofer. AND. LIKE. A. FOOL. We went to both.
7. I am behind on all schoolwork and just got caught up on my school log YESTERDAY.
6. I am behind on all housework. I have yet to take one item to charity so the piles are all over the house!!
5. On September 8th, I was caught up on schoolwork and housework. Only about 4 days later I was hopelessly behind on all.
4. We have had 2 playdates already this month because I am crazy. We are calling it "social studies". (Not really, we catch up later in the day!!)
3. I spent an entire Saturday with my mom and then my dad. (These should not occur in the same day!!)
2. We start TWO new extracurricular activities next week because I am simplifying our lives...
1. I scheduled all the girls(including me-see #9) for a physical this month all within a 20 day span. I should work at the doctor's office for how often I am reporting in!! Last one today!
I love that I am paring back my life and making more room for family time and God time.
10. I scheduled a retreat for me and an overnight girl scout event in the same month. (One or the other crazy woman but never both!!)
9. The first day of September started with a Pelvic exam. (Not the best way to start your month!)
8. There was a field trip on skate day. It's what I call a twofer. AND. LIKE. A. FOOL. We went to both.
7. I am behind on all schoolwork and just got caught up on my school log YESTERDAY.
6. I am behind on all housework. I have yet to take one item to charity so the piles are all over the house!!
5. On September 8th, I was caught up on schoolwork and housework. Only about 4 days later I was hopelessly behind on all.
4. We have had 2 playdates already this month because I am crazy. We are calling it "social studies". (Not really, we catch up later in the day!!)
3. I spent an entire Saturday with my mom and then my dad. (These should not occur in the same day!!)
2. We start TWO new extracurricular activities next week because I am simplifying our lives...
1. I scheduled all the girls(including me-see #9) for a physical this month all within a 20 day span. I should work at the doctor's office for how often I am reporting in!! Last one today!
I love that I am paring back my life and making more room for family time and God time.
Monday, September 18, 2006
I hate the rain!!!
Okay, I don't hate it. I know it is necessary, but it sure does bring me down. I am way to busy to blog. Mondays are full for sure. I just wanted to post something even if it is short.
I should kick up my stress level about ten or fifty notches so I could actually get some adrenaline going. It might help me catch up on some stuff let go too long!!
My church angst is cured by prayer. I am accepting not "fitting in". I am choosing to see it as a way to bring people together. Since we are always in the middle of things without feeling a part of things, we can just connect people while we are there. Thanks Steph S., for listening to me as I sorted that out in my brain!! I am still praying for someone to come along that can be a really strong christian friendship for my fella though. Maybe a whole family ( :
I am teaching parliamentary procedure to my girl scouts this year and it is fun fun. Gotta go, I am researching the web to save me some typing!!
Have a great Monday!!
Okay, I don't hate it. I know it is necessary, but it sure does bring me down. I am way to busy to blog. Mondays are full for sure. I just wanted to post something even if it is short.
I should kick up my stress level about ten or fifty notches so I could actually get some adrenaline going. It might help me catch up on some stuff let go too long!!
My church angst is cured by prayer. I am accepting not "fitting in". I am choosing to see it as a way to bring people together. Since we are always in the middle of things without feeling a part of things, we can just connect people while we are there. Thanks Steph S., for listening to me as I sorted that out in my brain!! I am still praying for someone to come along that can be a really strong christian friendship for my fella though. Maybe a whole family ( :
I am teaching parliamentary procedure to my girl scouts this year and it is fun fun. Gotta go, I am researching the web to save me some typing!!
Have a great Monday!!
Friday, September 15, 2006
I credit my low stress to the fact that I have given up. I choose joy. This world is NOT my home, I'm just a travelin' through. I stepped out of the race of having the best behaved kids, nicest car, hippest clothes(maybe I should try a little bit on this one) and cleanest house. It's good that I did too, we were always coming in last anyway, LOL!! I pray every day that I can love my kids and enjoy them. I will teach them to the best of my ability and hope God can help me beyond that. The housework, well, I do what I can and hope people always feel welcome.
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